Orhan Pamuk's New Book "Kafamda Bir Tuhaflik" has a quotation from Wordsworth's Prelude, shown in italics below that also gives the book it's name, A Strangeness in my Mind. An extended extract could possibly give more meaning to it. It is also interesting if we look into the life of the poet and the period it represents.
Mavi Boncuk |
That even so early, from the first crude days
Of settling-time in this my new abode,
Not seldom I had melancholy thoughts
From personal and family regards,
Wishing to hope without a hope—some fears
About my future worldly maintenance,
And, more than all, a strangeness in my mind,
A feeling that I was not for that hour
Nor for that place. But wherefore be cast down,
Why should I grieve?—I was a chosen son.
Mavi Boncuk |
That even so early, from the first crude days
Of settling-time in this my new abode,
Not seldom I had melancholy thoughts
From personal and family regards,
Wishing to hope without a hope—some fears
About my future worldly maintenance,
And, more than all, a strangeness in my mind,
A feeling that I was not for that hour
Nor for that place. But wherefore be cast down,
Why should I grieve?—I was a chosen son.